snowflakes in dawnApril2019


Osho Zen Tarot:  Ice-olation, Silence, Change
Medicine Cards: Mountain Lion, Squirrel
Mayan Oracle: Akbal, Cimi
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: The Hierophant, Seven of Wands, The High Priestess
Aleister Crowley Deck: Oppression, Love, Princess of Swords, Knight of Cups
Healing Earth Tarot: Fool, The Moon, Nine of Wands
Words of Truth: Overview, Intimacy, Magic, Meditation


As the isolation continues to separate and divide the world at this time, there is a stone-cold type of silence that underlies all the types of movement that continue to attempt to make any breakthrough or change happen.

I know that statement is odd and makes your brain say, “What?”

I am attempting to explain that as separation continues to divide, conversations cease. Because in such an environment there is no “coming together”. There is no compromise that is possible.

As frustrating as it is for me to say that, you can feel it in the patterns all around you. Those that hold a position, are not willing to shift in any way. Labels fly around in people’s heads even if they are not saying them outwardly. It creates a type of stilted silence that is based in unbending entrenchment of being right.

And in the cards many types of “death” are stalking us.

Now, don’t panic. I mean this in all the intricate ways of metaphorical meaning and subtly. The only real answers are those found deep in the womb of self. The only doorways that will work are those that bring you into intimate connection with yourself.

The possibilities are swirling around in the dreamtime. But you have to go into that dreamtime to grab them and bring them into the physical world.

Humanity has a latent potential for goodness that is being hidden away in the darkness because of fear. That fear is the boundary that separates you from your highest purpose and self. It is time to face the great pain that your idealized view of humanity seems to be dying in the dysfunctional chaos of this moment.

If you are lost in the negative side of Akbal, you will feel depressed, anxious, and have an inability to see how your self-judgment is amplifying your feelings of separation.

Remember, belief systems are illusions to begin with. There is a treasure that awaits you when you are willing to embrace the darkest part of yourself. That is the next level of growth that is needed at this time.

Death is a natural part of life. When you fear death, you have an insatiable need to control others. When you fear death, you resist what life is attempting to show you. When you struggle you are pushing against the harshness of the reality attempting to break down the rigidity of your own beliefs.

Regardless of what you want, you are beginning to see humanities incessant need to control the world as a reflection of human arrogance. You may believe that you know how things should be. But the reality is that they are not that way. They are not following along your projected plan at this time.

So what are you going to do?

You can keep fighting but this position can make you get pushed off the cliff that you are clinging to so desperately. And you might take another person with you in that conflict.

You can learn to die fighting or learn to die by allowing yourself to surrender up your position of what you perceive as right or wrong. What you are holding onto is limiting you. It is not supporting you the way you think. You have outgrown such childishness. It is time to see the world with mature and open eyes of an awakened adult.

When you let go and I mean really surrender and let go, you will create a vacuum for something new to come in. But until you let go nothing else will come into the space because that space if filled with all your ego’s projections, needs, validations, and desires.

You cannot be shown another door because you keep trying to unlock the same door with the wrong key. You need to “metaphorically” get out of this room, get out of this old house, leave this old town, and make your way to a new country. The “real” answer is “out there”!

The more any of us hold on, the more painful the death process will be. Just because you can see an external imbalance does not mean that you can impose your idea of balance on others.

Fools continue to play out their games and attempt to enroll you in their distortion. But is belonging worth it? I think not. Alliances cannot give you what you need to let go. You have to go within, alone, and discover the secret that you are supposed to uncover.

The Fool lives at the edge of aliveness because he is unafraid of the death that awaits. The Fool is fully present with what life is offering and can help you step beyond victimhood and become a part of the great change that is happening.

Fools know the end is upon them and step off the cliff into the abyss because they know there is a way beyond the known. And yet, wise people plan for such moments unafraid.

Notice the erratic behavior of others. These are people that have not planned and now are frantic to find what will make them feel safe. Such souls always fall back into patterns and habits of the past. They want to go back to when they could be unconscious and safe. But safety is never a guarantee in life, and you have to be willing to live at the edge of life and death. Only then can you be completely honest with yourself and others.

If you love yourself enough, you move from a place of aware preparedness.

The fearful unprepared person is a hoarder. Stockpiling things that they believe will make the difference and hold off the line of death. But hoarding is not living either. It is a completely fear based, primal level of existence.

Even animals face the reality of the life/death balance more honestly than most humans.

If you hoard your thoughts, you fear conflict and in being confronted with the truth.

If you hoard your love, you fear rejection from others.

If you hoard your beliefs, you fear discovering that you have placed faith in things that are a lie.

Humanity does not make choices because it fears to be blamed for the results and outcomes. You fear making choices that will justify, validate, and expose your own insecurities.

We are in a time when you have to lead and not care if anyone follows. If you care if others believe you and wish for them to fawn over you and follow you, then you are simply still operating in ego. That is never the way to true power. Only when you know with the conviction of your own heart should you ever take action.

The responsibility of leadership is to tell the truth. You become the example that you wish to manifest in the world. If you cannot do it with integrity, no one will believe you anyway. Never let yourself be tricked into believing that nothing else has validity except the ideas you have created by yourself.

~Suzanne Wagner~


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